耐性有限

i didn't realize it'd be so depressing to stare at the uncertainty
especially when something unintendedly intrudes and magnifies the uncertainty

and i feel fucking depressed that i'm out of control of it all



it keeps occurring to my mind that
when that happens one day--if it ever happens
it won't harm less no matter which way we take

the worst part is that i can't seem to find my way out.




it's my own fault.